Friday, January 11, 2013

Five-Minute Friday: Dive



"We have to be braver than we think we can be,
because God is constantly calling us to be more than we are,
to see through plastic sham to living, breathing reality,
and to break down our defenses of self-protection 
in order to be free to receive and give love."  
~ Madeleine L' Engle

 
For her thirtieth birthday last year, one of my close friends wanted us to jump from a floating hot tub out on one of the lakes cradled here in Seattle, after dark - in November.  I looked at her, two parts incredulous, one part awe, remembering days when I didn't require serious coaxing for such a venture. Days when I'd have been the one leading the pack.  I shivered and tried unsuccessfully to hide my reluctance, "Really? Are you sure about that?"  She flashed a smile of pure mischief and shrugged, "Why not? It'll be fun!"  I didn't tell her that I could make a list in that moment of a hundred things that sounded more fun than a lake in November, but it wasn't my birthday.

So that's how I found myself jumping one dark November night into the still waters of Lake Union, with two girlfriends beside me.  My body broke the water, sent waves spewing high, nearly froze the breath right in my lungs, and I surfaced yelping, grasping the back of the boat like a drenched cat.  I couldn't scramble out of the water fast enough.

And then, I did the unthinkable.  After several minutes of unthawing in the hot tub, I did it again.  And then a third time.  I wore a crazy grin at this point, felt the chilly water melting inhibition and self-doubt, releasing courage.  My whole body quivered invigoration.  

Tomorrow, I dive into thirty-two.  And this year, I dive into writing a book - at least a beginning; I dive into joy, though the waters stare back at me darkened and the temperature startles; and I dive into deeper life in Christ; and I dive further into this "living breathing reality" of loving in marriage, without self-protection.  And I wonder, amidst my doubts and fears and voices screaming "Don't do it!" if all this I dive into might actually startle my soul more awake.   


I'm back with Lisa Jo and the gang for another year of Five-Minute Friday posts.... The prompt today is "Dive."

 

12 comments:

  1. "startle my soul awake" - what a great line. And wow a night to remember, eh?

    loved this - thank you for sharing!
    ~Lisa-Jo

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    1. Thank you, Lisa-Jo :-) It is always a pleasure to participate in your FMF link ups and I so appreciate you hosting them!

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  2. Your 5 minute Friday was after mine, and such a blessing to read. Bless you today.

    Ashley from http://theheartofashley.blogspot.com/

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    1. Thank you, Ashley! Checking out your blog right now...

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  3. Awesome. Love the L'Engle quote. This February I am joining my fellow teachers and jumping at a Polar Bear Plunge. You words brought to life what I have to look forward too...is it too late to chicken out? ;)

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    1. I'm pretty smitten with L'Engle right now! And your comment made me chuckle... I obviously totally get what you're feeling right now :-) It will be alarmingly cold, I'm sure, but an experience you won't forget!

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  4. "I wore a crazy grin at this point, felt the chilly water melting inhibition and self-doubt, releasing courage. My whole body quivered invigoration."

    I found myself grinning right along with you!

    May you be blessed in all your "diving" this year...and in years to come.

    -Anna K.

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    1. Aw, I'm happy I made you grin :-) Thank you for the blessings! I sure hope your year is blessed with your own diving, whatever that may be for you!

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  5. This was wonderful,Amber.Happy 32nd year to you!

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    1. Aw, thank you, Kathi :-) I'm happy you enjoyed it!

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